March 31st, 2017 by Caryn Pasking

“I went to schools in different school clusters. So from elementary to middle school, I lost a lot of friends because we all went to different middle schools. From middle school to high school, I once again started out not really knowing anyone. However, it hit harder because I lost my lolo that year. I remember how he would always accompany me and my brother at amusement parks.

My favorite moment in high school, though, was performing a solo for one of the school’s biggest shows, Rock & Roll Revival. Technically, it only happened because the original girl got sick but it was still an amazing experience. It was also a great feeling to hear that an old couple sitting behind my parents in the audience said that I sounded like the original recording because I then knew that I had done my job.”

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February 10th, 2017 by Caryn Pasking

“When I was in high school, my brother was diagnosed with autism. I wanted to be that big brother but it was hard realizing you may not be able to do some of those things big brothers do. I was also a very angry person in high school – I would go from 0 to 100 at the smallest things. Having my brother really taught me to be more empathetic and patient. I didn’t like losing my temper at him and yelling at him. He’s a smart kid, he just has a hard time communicating.”


“I started thinking more about my identity in middle school. Growing up, it felt like if you weren’t fully Asian, you weren’t Asian at all. I was embarrassed to try Filipino things because I wasn’t sure if I was ‘worthy’ or if I could do it correctly. Later, my best friend from high school helped me embrace the fact that I am both Filipino and white and that I can still do Filipino things because it is still part of me. I learned that even if you’re half, you’re still whole.”

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February 3rd, 2017 by Caryn Pasking

“I felt a lot of love in my years in FCA. Spring semester my senior year was hard, probably the hardest in my college career. In the middle of March, I received an email that I wasn’t graduating, I was stressed and tired from planning debut, I heard some hard family news, and I felt like life was beating me up. Over spring break, I sat down and wrote the names of people who loved me and a specific instance when they showed me they loved me. During my toughest moments in FCA, whether they know it or not, I felt most loved by my eboard…they were there for me and it is because of eboard that I’ve felt so much love.

If I can give any advice to current and future members of FCA, it is to never stop trying to improve yourself. It’s always a process. You’ll never be perfect but as long as you make the effort to be the best person you can be, that’s all you can hope for. You’re not perfect because you’re meant to be better than who you were before.”


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